Self-Depracation

A good friend of mine said the other day, "You do not portray all of the great things about yourself in your writing. You are an intelligent, caring, beautiful woman, but you deemphasize that when you write."

And this got me to thinking. Why do I engage in self-depracation? Why don't I express the beauty in my daily life?

Life is a journey, and I am on a constant path of self-discovery and self-improvement. On this path, I have discovered, through the aid of aforemetioned friend, that I focus too much on negative aspects of my personality and not enough of the positive. Maybe it is indicitive of how I see myself? Maybe it is a shield, or a wall, to depersonalize, so no body every gets too close? Maybe it is the way I seek attention? Maybe I think my more self-effacing activities make for more colorful reading.

Regardless of why, I have decided to make a conscious effort to be less self-depracating....both in my life and in my writing.

On that note, it was a big day for me! I was offered by first REAL job as an attorney at a mid-sized firm in the city. Not only is it a great position, but I will be using my legal skills to do something I feel truely passionate about - advocate for children with special needs. This takes on very special interest in my life since my youngest child is autistic.

I feel a new, brighter, more-fulfilling and beautiful chapter in my life beginning.